I Hate

I hate myself and want to die.
I know thats not the answer, but thats how I feel.
He left me. I knew it was only a matter of time...
but it still hurts...

I feel like we never had a chance. We weren't even communicating.. every time
I was able to try... he'd blow me off...
Yet.. to him.. its all my fault...

I'm very hurt. Mostly because I can't blame it on him using me for sex.
What was he using me for?
Why ??? And WHY???

I don't get it.