Now

Now I seem to have to move my blog, because I don't want him reading it, its only fair he can put up comments, but wtf, why lie to me again. Why?

And what the fuck does any of this matter. I could die tommorrow. I could die Tuesday, so could you, so could anyone....

I really hope this DBT stuff helps, because this is the only thing I have left to hope for... the only thing... and the hope, I wouldn't really say its hope... Its a conscience, a guilt, that people try to trip me on, because I have a kid. FUCK THEM, and FUCK YOU, if you don't feel I have a right to die. I have nothing to live for. Not now....
I haven't for a long time.