Today

I want things to be a certain way. In a way, they are. I sit here and wonder what C. is doing and who he's doing it with. Little does he know, his date won't show up. I'm an evil bitch. Fuck with me, and I'll fuck back. I didn't want to hurt him, but I know at some point he will read this and he will know, he'll know something.

I sat and tried to read some blogs, some old blogs, This goes back quite a few years. My life is sad, very sad. I've never lived my own life. I always was able to live it thru others, and don't know what to do now.

Please save me.
Set me free.
Give me life.
Give me Liberty.

Give me Hope,
its what I need,

Take away my sorrows,
Take away my pain,
Take away the thoughts,
and all the self harm.

Let me be a better person,
Let me see past the lies,
Let me see the truth,
Let me know he's tried.