**FROM MYSPACE**

Tuesday, May 30, 2006
8:17AM

One Last Time
Current mood: optimistic


Its come to my attention, that people read my blog, and take me the wrong way.

I've been called a pyscho more than once. This isn't a label that I'm willing to live with.

Yes, I have borderling personality disorder, I'm bipolar, I have abandonment issues & and am insecure at times.

My blog is my venting place. I started using MySpace as my blog because I'm here so often.

No longer will this be. My friends, the ones that know me, and won't judge me are the only ones that need to read my blog, noone else.

So if you think you are close enough to me, that you think you should be able to read about my life, ask me.

I started my orginal blog, because I wanted to write a book about my life. That is still my intentions. But, I will be working on my poetry first.

So, as for really personally stuff, it won't be posted here any longer. But don't get me wrong I will still post things here, just not my rantings, and thoughts about how to deal with my own life.

Its not something I like people to have the wrong impression about me.

I'm a nice girl. I'm intelligent, and I want people to see that first, before they see all my problems.

Its just my problems are whats up front in my life. I've been working really hard to get the demons out, so I can move on, and have a happy life. This is something I will do, just my emotions get the best of me. Right now, I'm just happy to have friends, to support me. The best one at this point, is my boyfriend. He's very supportive and loving, and despite, my jealousy, he's sweet and kind to me, and understands that I'm going thru alot. He's helped me stay strong this last month. He's been a stable source of support.
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COMMENTS

I'm sorry that people are judging you by your posts. Sometimes you just have to get things off your chest and posting here seems to be a good place if it weren't for the assholes who want to judge you.

Posted by Steve on Tuesday, May 30, 2006 at 10:48AM


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Jae Ann


Its not just that, and its ok. Everyone will judge at times. I've discussed this with a few close friends, and they as well said, that some of the things I write about are off the wall, but they know me, and know how I am in real life & how much my blog helps me.

I wouldn't exactly call them assholes, because I realize I judge people at times, although I try not to. I just realized if I want my thoughts to stay a bit private, that I can do that, and that MySpace doesn't have to be my outlet.

I've been blogging for years, this past year, is probably had the most views, because I don't use my regular site to post.

My blog will still exist just not here.


Posted by Jae Ann on Tuesday, May 30, 2006 at 8:26 PM

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Clarification
Current mood: content
Category: Blogging
8:14AM


The last post was actually correct. I don't "HATE" any of those things. They are just things I don't like. I don't really "HATE" anything. HATE is a strong word, and there is not much I can honestly say I hate.

One thing I can say, honestly is that I hate ignorance and prejustice.

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Things I hate.... to be continued...
Current mood: cranky
5:18PM



I hate....

When I see comments where my boyfriend refers to another girl as sexy.

That he never comments on my blog, on the phone or here.

That he thinks I should be scared and run away...

That he always looks at sexy skinny women on the net...

That he always tells me I'm not fat, and always complains about his beer belly.

That I never get to see him.

That I wish I could.

That I always want him.

That I really don't know that much about him.

I hate that I'm so jealous.

I hate that I'm so needy.

I hate that I'm always trying to put people away.

I hate that I get attached really easily.

I hate the way I feel about a conversation me and Chris had last nite.

I hate people that won't shut up about me.

I hate co-workers that complain.

I hate people that are secretive and/or uncaring.

I hate my daughter's father.

I hate having to be responsible.

I hate doctors.

I hate sweet pickles.

I hate this messy house.

I hate that my skin is burnt, and my wrist hurts.

I hate stupid people.

I hate cocky people.

I hate when people put stupid bumper stickers all over their cars.

I hate people who don't know how to drive.

I hate people that lie to me.

I hate people that lie to themselves.

I hate being tired.

I hate feeling irritated and grumpy.

I hate PMS, & periods.

I hate birth control pills.

I hate condoms.

I hate medications.

I hate insurance companies.

I hate Verizon.

I hate Wal-mart.

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COMMENTS

I never comment on your blogs because we talk about them before I usually read them. I don't know why you get so mad about me telling someone they look nice when they change their hair. I don't know why you get so upset and jealous sometimes. You're the only woman in my life. You need to see that. I want you, no one else. But I do have friends and that's all they are. I love you.

Posted by Chris on Monday, May 29, 2006 at 9:18 PM