CG & ME

We are back together. Its not like anything was really different though, other than my thoughts in my head about commitment, and relationships. To me, in order to make love to someone, I need to be in a relationship with them, I need to know that they desire me more than anything. Things weren't really that different in the week and day that we were broke up. Only this time its official. We had an official discussion, and not a passionate exchange of words while making love.

I wonder why he changed his mind. I'm actually concerned about it. I want to make sure he did it for the right reasons, and not because he just wants to make me happy. I think that will be our biggest challenge. We are both trying to please each other... and strive to do so. We need to both work on what will make ourselves happy.

I'm looking forward to seeing him again tonite. Although I hope that I wake up some more. I'm half asleep here, but made it to work safely.

CG seemed to be afraid, not just of hurting me, or me hurting him, but he's afraid because of something in that past that I feel he's afraid I'll leave him. I won't. I won't lie, some of the stuff he's told me so far, is hard to deal with. Its hard for me to picture the man I love doing those things. I can't imagine. My worry is that, he will slip, and go back in that mode. I know how easy it is, one mistake, and you can flush all ur hard work down the drain.