Observations... Realizations..

When speaking in therapy today, most of the conversation was regarding CG, not so much my relationship with him, other than the fighting, but about how I feel he's not doing what is best for himself. I idealized him in a way, because he overcame a huge obstacle in his life. His drug addiction. I was so proud of him, and how I'd realized he'd grown in that last years. Meeting him, was like so strange, when I realized his past. Seeing him now, its hard for me to look at that part of him.

So one of the reasons I feel so angry about this whole this, is that I feel that she could destroy his life. I feel she would hinder his growth. I feel like she may hold him back, and I wonder if he feels about me, the way I feel about their relationship. I feel like he thinks he'll hold me back, he thinks he'll hinder my growth, and development, of my dreams and goals for the future. He deserves something good in his life. He deserves the best. He's a wonderful man that I love, and he deserves something better.

This is only my opinion, and as you and everyone else knows, everyone has an opinion, and not everyones will agree. I just feel like he's in denial about the greatness of their relationship, and the happiness of her future with him. I only wish for him the best, and at this point, its not about us being together.