I wish

I wish someone in this world could really understand me.. .. I wish people knew what to say to me, when they hestitate to call me, or message me.. or write.. or whatever. I wish I could say what I need, but all I need is for someone to love me, and to be there for me.

When I get bad, that is when everyone gets scared. That is when I need somebody the most. I hate love, alot, but I also love it. I hate that love hurts so much. I just am tired of hurting, tired of feeling so much pain. Tired of doctors that don't know what the fuck they are doing. Why does shit suck so much? I don't fucking get it.

Am I angry???? YES!! WHY WHY WHY??? I will always fucking ask why. Why can't the nice people be happy? Why do the rich keep getting richer? Why isn't the world fair. Why do I have to have the family I have. Why was I put on this Earth?? WHY WHY WHY????