Life... Blah

I need a drink. I want a drink. I'd rather have ativan.... one day soon.

I'm soooo stressed out. People here at work.. the customers are crazy today.
I feel like I'm going crazy. I'm depressed.. stressed and tired...

and Ohhh.. so lonely.

I can't wait until the things I'm doing fall into place. I need them too, I want them to, and I will do what it takes to make things happen. Its just so hard to find the motivation. But I've been pushing myself... its just things keep coming up.

I'm trying to keep the bills paid, trying to figure out my finances... trying to figure out what I really want to do. Its going slow. I'm so upset right now, because although I treated Darian for lice two weeks ago, she has it again. I was late for work today, because I had to spend time treating her, before we leave tommorrow. I told her I don't want her friend over at our house, and she is not allowed to go there for a while ( I said forever, but I didn't mean that).

In the meantime, Francis is a drunk, I'm dumping his wine down the sink when I get home tonite. Which is ironic, because i'll be drinking.

Hhahahha.. now i just have to find a D.D.

Uh.. and a boyfriend..