Well..

Update...

I still love T. Madly.. deeply.. madly.. deeply..
Did I say deeply???

Broke up with Josh, he agreed, that its better we are friends, and that he was thinking the same thing.

I came twice last nite... I really needed that, and wanted that so bad, for so long, thanks, again.. u know who you are... that helped me.

Depression, is subsiding for the most part, I still feel.. blah, but work is going better... no crying. with the exception of the pain from me stapleing my hand. I did have a few tears.... and sometimes, I get some hard calls, but nothing that set me off lately..

And I have alot to ponder. Why do I hate everything? Why do I think I hate everything... cuz I really love alot of things.. but why do I bitch so much? Why does life have to be this way? Why was I born? Why can't T. and I be together..... Does he really love me? or does he just think he does?

Why does this thing with EPB.. have to be so hard.. I felt like I was talking to a customer on the phone. He called me the other nite, threatening suicide..and told me he had cut himself. I didn't know what to do, I hadn't talked to him in months.. i got an email a few days after.. from his best friend Megan.. saying. . he was ok, but in the nut ward....

What to do . what to do? Heading up north to pick up my.. sis... Can't wait!!
Almost thanksgiving.. I'm thankful.. I have a day off..
and that I can be with my daughter, and some of my family and that my car is fixed.. and that T. .. is still part of my life, and that I have good friends, Like... LISA.... Mike.... Michel, ((TRUTH)), Drew, and well. .. i'm sure i missed someone. and i'm sorry if i did.. but I LOVE YOU TOO!!

What are you thankful for? Would love to see people responses...