Chaos

Things are a bit chaotic for me. CG & I agreed not to see each other. I agreed with what he wanted, because... A. I don't want to see him hurting, B. I know its whats best in the long run, C. I don't want to be where I'm not wanted, D. I feel if he wants to be with someone like her, maybe they deserve each other. I know I sound like a bitch, but I'm angry, I'm hurt, I'm upset, I'm frustrated, and I love him.

I don't love lightly. I love with all my heart & soul. I love with my all. I love passionately, freely, & unconditionally. My love is like that of a innocent child. I may get upset or angry with my other, but I would never deny them my love & affections. Thats how I am. I'm joulesofaffection. I'm Julie... I am me.