Dates suck...

Went out with KH, I thought we had a nice time. We just watched movies at his place, it got late, and I was tired, and we both kind of fell asleep. He didn't hit on me or anything... but.. I ended up staying. I slept in his bed. We didn't have sex or anything, mostly he just held and caressed me. It was nice... but the next day.. he was weird about things..

He decided that he didn't want to do anything, that he just wanted to hang out at his house. He played computer games, while I watched some tv, and slept on the couch... for some reason I was extremely tired. I hung out for a while, and then decided I'd go see CG, since he'd be off work soon. He was surprised to see me, but then we talked about my date... he said.... things turned out like they did, cuz I didn't give KH any. He didn't really try .. anyway.. but I wouldn't have anyway. I don't believe in haveing more than one sexual partner at once. And CG, just happens to be mine. I stayed the nite with CG, Saturday nite, and went home Sunday after I took him to work.

Sunday nite, S came over, and we watched a movie. (well half of it) and then watched my Sunday nite shows. We cuddled a bit, and talked about my ex's and life. He still seems so sweet, and part of me wishes I could give him what he needs. He's too nice to me, although he knows we won't be dating. We plan on hanging out most of next weekend, cuz his parents are out of town. Hopefully it will be nice.. so we can swim in the pool. He dj's at clubs at nites too, which will be cool to get out.. and about... since I don't go out that much.

So.... I'm here at work today getting overtme. Darian is in VA, with her dad, and gramma.. she seems to be having a good time. She's adopted a puppy there.. and sounds so much different. More talkative. Its nice to have some free time, but I do miss her dearly.

Back to making some more money.....
Wishing I was being held....

CG, and I fought again last nite... I was upset because I told him something, and he kept questioning me on it. I told him I had thought about writing Christina a letter, and he asked.. what would I tell her.. and I wasn't really sure. I can think of lots of things I could say, but I would never do it, because I know it would hurt him. I then asked .."what would you do if you were in my situation.. ".. and he kept saying. "what situation??" , and he kept raising his voice when I wouldn't explain.. It was hurting me, and frustrating me.. he should know what the fuck i'm talking about... I ended up hanging up on him twice.. (since he called back).. I can't stand when I feel like I'm being yelled at. Plus I don't need to cause him anymore frustration...

I'm trying really hard not to call him again. If he wants me, he can call me.. but I'm hoping he's so busy.. that he'll just forget about me this week. Its starting to hurt more and more...