I Give Up

I don't know what I'm supposed to do, or how I'm supposed to feel. I apparently have no idea how to be a good girlfriend. I've never dated a guy that was more nosy than I was. I've never felt like I'm hiding something. I don't know what to do. I give up.

I don't know what he wants from me. I don't know why he even wants me. I don't know how its ok for me to write things here, and its not ok for me to talk to certain people. I'm not even sure it matters anymore. I'm really depressed about this. Actually no I'm not, I'm just tired about it.

I know I probably shouldn't of hung out with him. But it was innocent. He was across the street from my house. He told me where he was, and I was like.. "oh.. ur right by my house" and he's like "Yeah?" and something was mentioned about stoppin' over.. and i said he could. My daughter was still up. He knows how much I love my bf. And I figured I'd just deck him if he tried anything. I did think of maybe I should say no, don't come over, but we were supposed to meet for coffee sometime anyway.

I can't even finish what I was gonna say here, because I feel like I shouldn't say anything. All I want to do is cry. I'm off to my room to do just such.