Frustration & Depression

Go hand and hand.
So frustrated by so many things. Whats more frustrating than all the things going on is the fact, that I have noone to talk to about things, and the more I talk, the more confused I become. I have some choices to make, (no, no attempts to suicide just yet). I'm trying to work through this. I really am. It's hard though. It would be so much easier to just give up. I have quite a few options, and I'm not sure where to go.

Alot of financial troubles now. I love my car, but its so frustrating, I am not sure how I'm going to make some extra money. I hardly see Darian as it is. I think I mite find another job anyway. I have to do something. Pretty much, because I was a bit irresponsible with my spending, I'm lost as to where I'm at with my money. All I know is, I paid some bills, but not the phone bill, so I'm waiting for them to turn it off. My aunt will kill me, regardless of whether or not this is 100% my fault. I hate Verizon. I really do. The only reason I don't want to get rid of them, is cuz I can't /won't be able to talk to Lisa anymore. It gets even more depressing without her.

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