Had some more. It sucks. Last nite, and a bit today, I'm so frustrated. I wish I knew how to cope. I mean I am coping to an extent. I just want some happy pills though. I want to feel better, I'm working on it, but it is so hard. I thought about racing with my new car, and purposely trying to run it into a tree...
Oops.. a bad accident. Would it work? I doubt it. But who knows. I hate the depression. I hate people's reactions to the things I type here. I'm thinkin of giving this up, or moving it somewhere exclusive... its .. too personal, and I've shared it with too many people, who don't appreciate it.. nor understand it. I want to work on my web page soon. Wish me luck
Gotta get back to work.
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I'm sorry you are having those thoughts, hon! I wish you didn't have them and I wish that I didn't, either. I want to feel better, too. It seems so unfair that we feel this way, why is it too much to ask to just feel normal??!! But I just wanted to write this comment to beg, plead, grovel even.....please don't give up posting! I have come to love your posts, probably for two reasons. One is the fact I really enjoy reading your writing and the second reason is apparently because I like *reading* other people's writing more than *writing* my own as of late! =o) I do think that maybe you shared it with the wrong people....(I can think of one in particular...*wink, wink*) As long as I am a member of your "exclusive" readers, I should be ok! Otherwise you can write me at North Warren, PA....Ugh, I hope they have Internet access there, it won't bode well for you if they don't, you know my recent history with writing!.....LOL
LOVE YOU!
Well, thanks for the encouragement, I didn't stop posting. Seriously thinking about paying for a site to host.
After all, this is, this blog that is... is the prequel, to the book I want to write. I've been thinking about starting it alot recently. I've decided a bit more, as to how I'm going to use this blog.
Lisa.. are you ready to be a proofreader yet? My spelling is Atroucious.. (you know.. bad- I can't spell.. DUH)
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