My Best Friend

I spoke with her tonite. My heart cries out with pain. I have done an aweful thing to her, and she doesn't even know it. The two people closest to her, have hurt her the most. I can't stay silent any longer. I am writing her a letter tonite, and will send it out tommorrow. I can't keep in just because I'm in fear of what it will do to me. She needs to know. She deserves to know, she deserves enough respect to know what is going on. I fear it will ruin my daughters relationship with her daughter. If I don't say or do anything, I will feel guilt for the rest of my life. I told her about my website today, I probably shouldn't have, but I didn't think she would be interested. I feel for her. I wish I could make her happy, I love her so much. I just can't live knowing, I've not told her the truth. I will just have to deal with whatever decision she makes to continue or not continue our relationship. It scares me, but at the same token, I know I have to deal with this. It's been too long.