Sadness

I cried as I read this post. My friend has written this about me. I feel sad, not sure if is because I know this hurts my friends, or because I don't feel this way today. Its hard for me to fathem, just a few days ago, I wanted to die, and today, other than being a little upset with my boyfriend, I'm ok. Not good, not bad, just living, breathing.. Still on my search,
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My search for self. What is self? what will I find? Who the Hell am I? I really don't know the answer to any of my questions, I hope that I can find them one day though.

As for hope for the future, I'm still searching for that. I've actually been getting some things lately. Balanced the checkbook, made some calls. Have plans for next week. BUt I got to get out of here, before I get emotional again. I'm on my way to Dubois to pick up Danielle and the baby.