Hecticity

Is that a word?
Who cares.
My life is so hectic lately. Busy, busy, busy... keeps me happier, because I have less time to worry. Things still aren't perfect but they seem to be getting better. I've been busy with Therapy, work, job interviews, other appts like allergist, and now the dentist. I kind of wish I could get another job, and reduce my hours here, so I could keep my insurance. We will see. This job is a bunch of bs. Blah, things here lately haven't been that bad.

My new bf, CG is great. He always cheers me up, despite my bitchyness. I'm a little lost now though, because, I asked him last nite.. "what is it you really want?" and he replied "I don't know". I wish that I could find someone that has an inkling of what they want. I know what I want. I've known for a long time. I want a family. A traditional one in a sense. Husband, wife, and children. Maybe one day.