Still having major mood swings. Happy, sad, angry, happy, angry sad... sometimes different orders, sometimes all the emotions at once.
I wish T. read my blog here. Sometimes I write things that are hard for me to say. I usually do good an open up to him, but today it was hard. I was really upset with him. As soon as something goes wrong, I feel upset, betrayed, abandoned... and in this case.. its all mostly in my head. He's been a great boyfriend, he's just a really busy guy. I wondered how he'd ever find the time for a gf, when I was just friends with him, back when I was dating Peter. Part of me still wonders.
I think I'm crazy.. all the emotions I have for him. How much I wish every nite.. was spent with him. Falling asleep in the same bed.. holding each other, comforting each other.. talking about our days. If he asked me tommorrow, to marry him next week. I know I'd say yes. Thats crazy. I know it is. It feels right though. It feels good. I don't think its because I'm lonely either... its not that. I just love him so much.. and I have faith that he would always take care of me.
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