Doing Something

Feeling a bit better now. T. read my blog, which was great and we were able to talk abit. I was upet about the way he let me go, though.. I knew he needed to go. I'm feeling better, because right now (although I should be sleeping) I'm doing somethings for myself.

I've been looking up bankruptcy info. So far, still seems cut and dry. Seems simple in my case, since I don't really own anything of value. Still have to finish my database, then request credit reports, and then going to call EAP, see if I can get a referral, cuz then I guess we can get a discount.

Also did something bigger for myself. I read an email from one of my support groups and read that my friend in England recently took the MENSA test and passed. I was told a few years back, that it was a great experience, and I really should try to take the test, and get in. I did some research and found it. .its National Testing Day on the 16th of October. I sent an email to see if anyone in the area was doing testing. So, hopefully, the will... and I'll be able to go take the test. The prospect is exciting, and makes me nervous at the same time.

Just doing things for myself is fulfilling. I like to keep busy. I'm happier that way.

I still worry about T. and I. I wonder if I will fuck up. Part of him seems too perfect. How did I get so lucky? (we say that often to each other). I know, part of me feels like I don't know him enough, part of me feels like we've known each other forever. Its scary. But awesome at the same time.