SSDD.. ( or maybe not)

Same ole Same Ole..

MOOD: Stable but wandering....
LOVE LIFE: Non-existent, boring, and did I say non-existent?
WORK: Frustrating and fucked up, as usual
FAN CLUB: mostly non-existant, unless you count the hot guy that just wants to fuck? but... I don't so.. I don't think he counts
EX-BF LIST: Um... they don't call, a few text, or message me online... but basically been nil for about a week now
POSSIBLE LIST: pretty much NIL for the nite, except Bryant, which doesn't really count because he lives like.. at least 800 miles away... (though he acts like he wants to do the ld thing, and won't really explain why, but I told him I'm not up for that... that and he didnt' call back...MEN..GRRR)
SI THOUGHTS: none much, except the wandering ones, that think about killing myself next year, after i get some good life insurance...
PLANS: The Silo on Saturday.. (most likely.. i got an add request from MySPace, from a band that is playing.. and thought it mite be worth it check it out), Don't think John will stop by, and Haven't heard from Mark.. since we hung out last..., other plans include, possibly.. meeting Rob, (he's asking again.. so I figure lunch won't hurt), laundry... and more laundry and cleaning.. and sleep.... Then Next weekend... Go visit Punky, I hope.. and The weekend after that, I head home... etc..
NEW THOUGHTS: to find love like my brother and his gf have, thru everythign they stick together, and its been tough... known each other since age 7
WHAT I NEED TO DO: its nice to hve plans, and goals for the future, I have lots of stuff planned for next year, that keeps the SI thoughts away, and helps me dream of a better future....

NOW: I need to go to bed...