FUCKED UP

My life is soo fucked up.
I don't know what to do, where to turn...
or what steps I need to take to get better...

I need help.
I'm going off the edge.... and starting to go really fast..
each day is like 20x worse than the last.

Noone cares...
Noone understands...

I'm afraid to get help. I'm afraid to lose my job. This will prolly be my second write up in two weeks.... though I do have vacation time to take.. I'm not sure whats going to happen. I barely function....

I barely breathe.. I barely find a reason to survive..
and I want one.

I drive dangerously, usually over 85, and I've told myself if I see a cop, I am NOT stopping.. I will die.. first..

AND that I will..

Lucky for me.. (and you, and my family), I've not seen any police...