Mess Again

I just got woke up early by the phone, something from my daughter's best friends mother.... about shopping and such.. She takes my daughter on Tuesdays...

So I got a message from my youth minister friend.. (the one I have a major crush on) a yahoo message asking me how the DR was.

I still can't get ahold of the DR. Called the office, got a busy signal twice, and then, called back and got a hold message for like ten minutes... so I called the other office, only for them to say, I had to go to the office I normally go at...WTF, they didn't seem to care when they made me an appt at the wrong location. SHe said she'd try and get ahold of someone to get me an appt there... hahah..

My life sucks..
I wish I had a bridge to jump off of. I don't know what I'm supposed to do, I can't handle all this drama... over getting an appointment to get meds, I don't really want to take in the first place... its just I'm at my wits end, and I need this crying to stop.. I can't handle it..

Now if they only had a pill to erase T. from my memory.... Maybe I should start drinking, it seems to work for everyone else.. eventually I'll kill the brain cells that he's in, and never think of him again....