Met Someone

Yes.. I met someone tonite. Someone real. From online....
it was a bit quick.. I ran into his profile yesterday.. (Sunday nite) nite, chatted, and then talked on the phone into the early morning... Then I met him in person tonite.
He is interesting and funny....

And I'm attracted to him. I don't think the long term would be a good relationship though. Not at all.... I'd try to change him too much. I don't think it would work. He's a bad boy.
He has a job, and a car though, and lives on his own, thats always a plus....

But.. he smokes... drinks.. and.. admits to smoking weed on occasion....

So why did I even go meet him? Loneliness.. I'm sure...
It felt nice to be held again...

Especially after someone who said they loved me.. fucked me off tonite...
Telling me to grow up, and suck it up and move on... when I told him I was sad and upset.... and after waiting and waiting for T. to come around.. only to reaffirm my beliefs each day.. that I don't matter to him...


Too tired to write anymore right now...