Earlier today

I met T, online.. and we had this convo, then.. he called and we talked on the phone....


He _Says (1:09:04 PM): hello
I say (1:09:08 PM): Hi
I say (1:09:13 PM): how areyou
He _Says (1:09:18 PM): not bad
He _Says (1:09:21 PM): you?
I say (1:09:30 PM): I'm still breathing so thats a good sign
He _Says (1:09:36 PM): cool
I say (1:09:42 PM): yeah if you say so
He _Says (1:09:48 PM): llisten I cant talk long...but I wanted to say hello
I say (1:09:54 PM): well thanks..
I say (1:09:55 PM): I gues
He _Says (1:10:15 PM): how was Dare's birthday
I say (1:10:20 PM): so the concert went well. i take it;
I say (1:10:25 PM): it was ok, we havent had a party yet
I say (1:10:31 PM): thanks for calling me Tuesday btw
He _Says (1:11:00 PM): I didn't...which is prolly your point
I say (1:11:02 PM): She liked her presents I got her, and she had a little cake.. cuz
I say (1:11:15 PM): yeah. that was my point.. sorry. I'm not doing really well right now
He _Says (1:11:25 PM): Ididn't go home Tuesday night
I say (1:11:35 PM): oh?
I say (1:11:48 PM): I take it you were too busy to email all week.. too
He _Says (1:11:50 PM): went straight from work to Hellcamp and from Hellcamp to show
I say (1:11:57 PM): oh ok
He _Says (1:12:39 PM): today is really the first "day off" I've had since SUnday....
He _Says (1:12:48 PM): I ever have plans for today so...
I say (1:12:57 PM): huh? ever have plans?
I say (1:13:06 PM): I know, I read ur blog
He _Says (1:13:07 PM): even ...
I say (1:13:17 PM): cool, so what areyou doing exciting?
He _Says (1:13:40 PM): nothing....selling so gear in exchange for some other gear
I say (1:13:47 PM): what kind of gear?
He _Says (1:14:02 PM): my friend first show is tonight...so I'll prolly go there
I say (1:14:10 PM): oh. sounds like fun
He _Says (1:14:11 PM): and I really want to see SAW
He _Says (1:14:27 PM): but that prolly wont happen
I say (1:14:33 PM): why is that?
He _Says (1:14:44 PM): U have no money
He _Says (1:14:48 PM): I have rather
I say (1:14:54 PM): um.. sucks to be you
He _Says (1:14:57 PM): yeha
He _Says (1:15:11 PM): and I wont until next Fri
I say (1:15:15 PM): that sucks.
I say (1:15:32 PM): I'm not really in the mood to talk to you right now, so i'm going to go back and play my game
He _Says (1:15:41 PM): ok...well take care
I say (1:15:52 PM): yeah.. i'm right on that. its not like you care
He _Says (1:16:07 PM): please dont start
I say (1:16:18 PM): I'm not starting it. I'm ending it...
I say (1:16:25 PM): I really thought you cared about me...
He _Says (1:16:51 PM): Fine...
He _Says (1:16:56 PM): do what you must
I say (1:16:59 PM): its waht you want..
I say (1:17:01 PM): apparently
He _Says (1:17:16 PM): yeah it is ...but that another conversation
I say (1:17:31 PM): then why lead me on.. only to hurt me more?
He _Says (1:17:50 PM): I didn't
I say (1:17:53 PM): you did
He _Says (1:17:58 PM): I've nothing but honest
I say (1:17:59 PM): you have from the begining..
I say (1:18:05 PM): by telling me you want to be with me?
He _Says (1:18:14 PM): I did...at one time
He _Says (1:18:19 PM): I dont anymnore
I say (1:18:20 PM): good, I'm glad you dont now
I say (1:18:21 PM): good
He _Says (1:18:26 PM): this is not the way I wanted to do this
I say (1:18:34 PM): why? cuz you can't be honest with me?
He _Says (1:18:43 PM): I'm being honest now
He _Says (1:18:47 PM): and I have been
I say (1:18:50 PM): thats all i asked.. and last time we talked.. you told me you missed me . adn you wanted to see me
I say (1:18:54 PM): so what changed since then?
He _Says (1:18:58 PM): nothing
I say (1:19:07 PM): then why dont you want to be with me
He _Says (1:19:10 PM): just the realization that nothing I do will make you happy
I say (1:19:17 PM): you dont do much for me?
He _Says (1:19:27 PM): and I resent feeling like I "have" to do it
I say (1:19:29 PM): you will never make me happy.. thats someting I find within myself...
I say (1:19:39 PM): I don't tell you you have to do anything...
I say (1:19:48 PM): but the thing is. I'd do anything for you... or would have.. rather
He _Says (1:19:57 PM): we are not having thie conversatio this way
I say (1:20:12 PM): then. can I schedule an appt to have this converstion with you
He _Says (1:20:37 PM): fine...do you want to have this now?
I say (1:20:43 PM): you said you were leaving..
He _Says (1:20:48 PM): it can wait
I say (1:21:10 PM): yes.. all i've wanted.. is to talk, and get whatever this is out of the way.. so I can move on.. I dont like waiting to talk about things