My response....

The Story of Jae..

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I first of all want to say, I can't believe that you emailed me this, and couldn't or didn't have the balls to just tell me in person. I hurt now more than ever. I had a feeling this is what you were going to say, and I was prepared.

I told you over and over again, you couldn't give me what I wanted and needed, and now I feel worse, because I wanted to give you a chance. And now I've lost you, I've lost the only person that has ever given me so much hope and happiness.

I know one reason we both got into this relationship because we are both needy. I don't feel like you tried to make this work, but that is my opinion. I'm not mad because you failed, I'm mad cuz I feel that you didn't really try.

Just the thing I don't get is why you thought you could make time for me, and kept telling me, and from the last email, I feel you like you blamed me for everything, that really hurt.

I wouldn't ever move to Maryland for you. I moved once for a guy, and I promised myself I would never do that. I wanted you to share your five year plan with me, because I just didn't see how it could ever work, and wanted to know what you had in mind.

I don't know if we could ever start over, because of the trust. This makes me lose more trust in you, because I feel you couldn't be man enough to face me.

Part of me just wants to beg you to stay with me, but the other part of me knows this is best. Just.. I don't know how you feel, but I don't want to lose you as a friend. You really mean alot to me.

I don't know if I can forgive you yet, but I'm sure I will. I try not to hold grudges, its just hard for me to deal with this right now. Especially with Darian too, she really cares about me, and she heard me talking about us, with Lisa, and kept asking me questions. She will miss you, as will I. More than you will ever know. I love you so much.

Julie