We Talk...

But now I'm even more hurt and confused. Rather than explain myself now, I'll just post the convo, and I'll write more about it tonite.


He says: (11:16:58 PM): hello
I say: (11:17:10 PM): Hi there
He says: (11:17:25 PM): how are you
I say: (11:17:29 PM): so/so
I say: (11:17:29 PM): u
He says: (11:17:49 PM): same
I say: (11:18:03 PM): how was your day
He says: (11:18:11 PM): busy
I say: (11:18:24 PM): your home early
I say: (11:18:30 PM): I was just getting ready for bed
He says: (11:18:39 PM): I was going to go out...but I have some other work to do so
I say: (11:18:49 PM): oh ok.
He says: (11:19:16 PM): I read your email
I say: (11:19:23 PM): and? which one?
He says: (11:19:28 PM): both
I say: (11:19:39 PM): and? ur response?
He says: (11:21:07 PM): I don't agree with everything
I say: (11:21:19 PM): like?
He says: (11:21:51 PM): my distractions being more important
I say: (11:22:21 PM): they feel like they are to me
He says: (11:23:01 PM): I cant do anything about your feelings
I say: (11:23:28 PM): I didn't ask you to
He says: (11:23:39 PM): but I do know that I dont want to be....not friends at least
I say: (11:23:58 PM): huh? are you saying you don't want to be friends/
I say: (11:24:27 PM): that was obvious the way you deleted me from myspace before you even sent me the letter.. saying you wanted to break up
He says: (11:24:30 PM): you know I didn;t stop loving you....I just know aI cant give you wait you want
He says: (11:24:46 PM): Ideleted you after
I say: (11:24:54 PM): if you say so
I say: (11:25:10 PM): why dont you want to be friends
He says: (11:25:20 PM): I had to resend it....originally I sent to the wrong account
I say: (11:25:29 PM): oh
He says: (11:25:43 PM): no... I do want to be friends
I say: (11:26:02 PM): ok.. i'm confused
I say: (11:26:06 PM): this hurts alot.
He says: (11:26:30 PM): you sid you wouldnt mind being friends...I am agreeing
I say: (11:26:34 PM): ok
I say: (11:27:13 PM): Tony..
I say: (11:28:34 PM): so what made you decide what you did?
He says: (11:28:53 PM): decide what?
I say: (11:29:06 PM): that we shouldn't see each other..
I say: (11:29:11 PM): because I told you the same thing last weekend
I say: (11:29:16 PM): and you asked me to give you a chance
He says: (11:30:00 PM): I cant give you want you want....
I say: (11:30:25 PM): I
I say: (11:30:31 PM): I've told you that from the beginning
He says: (11:30:43 PM): and maybe I should have listened
I say: (11:30:57 PM): maybe I shouldnt have said it
I say: (11:31:32 PM): I love you so much
He says: (11:33:17 PM): are you ok?
I say: (11:33:49 PM): I don't know, I’m really hurt.. and I don't want to break up
He says: (11:34:25 PM): then what do you want me to do
I say: (11:34:42 PM): I dont know, but I didn't want you to just give up on us
I say: (11:36:44 PM): still there?
He says: (11:36:47 PM): yeah
I say: (11:37:06 PM): your not saying anything
He says: (11:37:33 PM): not sure what to say
I say: (11:38:02 PM): whatever you are thinking and or feeling
He says: (11:38:25 PM): ok
He says: (11:38:58 PM): a....
He says: (11:39:36 PM): I sent you email, because I figured it would be easier for everyone involved
I say: (11:39:50 PM): it wasn't very nice
He says: (11:39:53 PM): I was particularly thinking about Dare
I say: (11:40:18 PM): how does that make it easier on her
He says: (11:40:26 PM): I had thought about driving up, but it just seems like a bad idea
He says: (11:40:45 PM): because she doesn’t have to see it
I say: (11:40:50 PM): I'd of rather talked about it on the phone, than hear that in an email
I say: (11:40:57 PM): she still has to see me .. crying...
I say: (11:41:09 PM): every time I think about something that reminds me of you.
I say: (11:41:19 PM): I gave her a kiss, and told it was from you..
I say: (11:41:30 PM): and she said " he can come over tomorrow and give me one" and I started bawling
He says: (11:41:49 PM): I'm sorry
I say: (11:42:15 PM): she told me later.. she wanted to throw me a party... so she could find me a husband, so she could have a step daddy.. and a baby brother..
I say: (11:42:30 PM): she loves you, I love you...
I say: (11:42:46 PM): it would be easier if you just told me I was a bitch and you hated me
I say: (11:42:52 PM): or that you wanted to be with someone else
He says: (11:43:50 PM): that would untrue
He says: (11:44:12 PM): You're not a bitch, and I dont hate you
I say: (11:44:14 PM): it wouldnt matter, it would make it easier...
I say: (11:45:00 PM): why did you say ? "Maybe when that happens, we can start over."
He says: (11:46:13 PM): if we're going to be together...then we need to be TOGETHER....In the same place, or at least the same zip code
He says: (11:46:54 PM): that was the plan....but I can't do that right now....
I say: (11:47:02 PM): yes.. I know.. .. I didn't ask for that now
I say: (11:47:09 PM): but that is what I wanted too
I say: (11:47:29 PM): I'm sorry I said.. I'd never move for you, because that isn't completely true
He says: (11:47:32 PM): no...but you need that....and until I give that to you I'm always going to fall short
He says: (11:47:42 PM): and you deserve better
I say: (11:47:48 PM): dont tell me that shit
I say: (11:48:15 PM): I know I expect too much.
He says: (11:48:26 PM): no...you dont really
I say: (11:48:38 PM): I do. I always want results, right now..
I say: (11:48:47 PM): even when I know that isn't possible
He says: (11:49:05 PM): you expectations are very reasonable for someone who lives with you....or is close enough to suffice
He says: (11:49:20 PM): right now I am neither
I say: (11:49:23 PM): just..the phone calls, are important to me... its my way of connecting with you, and it hurt so much, that you didn't see that, and only saw it.. "as just a phone call"
He says: (11:49:40 PM): I'm sorry about that
I say: (11:49:55 PM): but I didn't ask you to live with me.. or move for me...
I say: (11:50:04 PM): I just wanted you to do what you say...
He says: (11:50:06 PM): no I offered
He says: (11:50:18 PM): just cant do it right now
I say: (11:50:26 PM): I didn't ask you to do it right now..
I say: (11:50:37 PM): I know it takes time.. but I could never understand why you offered
He says: (11:50:52 PM): I offered because I wanted to be with you
He says: (11:50:54 PM): still do
I say: (11:51:12 PM): then why can't we work something out?
He says: (11:51:49 PM): because it wont be enough for you...and you know that
I say: (11:52:21 PM): I dont know what to say
I say: (11:52:24 PM): I just can't stop crying
I say: (11:53:05 PM): I dont know that what you said is true..
I say: (11:53:50 PM): why do you think it wont be enough for me
He says: (11:54:27 PM): because its already proven to be the case
I say: (11:54:57 PM): do you really even think we've tried that hard?
I say: (11:55:06 PM): if thats what you think.. then fine
I say: (11:55:13 PM): I'm going to try to get some sleep
He says: (11:55:24 PM): please dont be mad
I say: (11:55:28 PM): I am mad
I say: (11:55:37 PM): mad because you gave up.. without even really trying
I say: (11:55:50 PM): after you knew what I was like, and what I wanted and needed..
I say: (11:56:00 PM): after I gave you my heart, my body my soul
I say: (11:56:08 PM): after you promised to never hurt me
I say: (11:56:31 PM): after I tried to tell you, that you weren't giving me what I needed, and I didn't think you could..
I say: (11:56:39 PM): and you asked me to give you a chance to...
He says: (11:56:53 PM): fine
I say: (11:57:03 PM): fine what?
He says: (11:57:08 PM): so I am wasting my time trying to be friends with you then
I say: (11:57:20 PM): I didn't say that
I say: (11:57:40 PM): I just don't understand
I say: (11:58:11 PM): how you can say these things, to me. and expect me to just accept the fact that it has to be over
I say: (11:58:28 PM): accept the fact... that you love and and want me, but...
I say: (11:58:32 PM): it just can't be
He says: (11:58:35 PM): it doesnt have to be over.....
I say: (11:58:44 PM): then what?
He says: (11:58:49 PM): remember we were friends before we were lovers
I say: (11:59:00 PM): yes..
He says: (11:59:01 PM): cant we just go back to that
He says: (11:59:26 PM): and when circumstances are maybe can try again
He says: (11:59:37 PM): circumstances are better
I say: (11:59:39 PM): its not that simple
He says: (11:59:45 PM): I know thawt


He says: (12:00:02 AM): but its better than nothing...yes?
I say: (12:00:11 AM): I dont know if I could give you another chance.. knowing you gave up on me..because circumstance were hard..
I say: (12:00:20 AM): you know.. their are guys.. waiting in line...
I say: (12:00:39 AM): and.. one day.. my heart will start to heal.. and.. someone will catch my eye
I say: (12:00:51 AM): it is better than nothing..
I say: (12:00:59 AM): but...
I say: (12:01:42 AM): I cry so much, everytime of think of you being here.. I dread going to sleep, because all I want is for you to hold me.. and I know you will never again..
I say: (12:02:04 AM): all I wanted is to be part of your life..
He says: (12:02:11 AM): you're making this much harder than need be
I say: (12:02:33 AM): whatever you say Tony... I'm going to go to bed.. you have your opinion.. and thats fine..
I say: (12:02:47 AM): I'm sure you'll meet some nice girl.. that really loves to fuck
He says: (12:02:57 AM): dont do this
I say: (12:03:04 AM): dont do what..
I say: (12:03:06 AM): get mad
I say: (12:03:17 AM): cuz you couldn’t even call on the phone. and tell me this..
He says: (12:03:20 AM): actually no... I take that back
I say: (12:03:31 AM): after you led me on.. knowing that you couldn't do what you said you could
I say: (12:03:36 AM): what?
He says: (12:03:36 AM): get mad ....get angry .....get it out of your system
He says: (12:03:45 AM): so I can have my fried back
I say: (12:03:49 AM): I'm so hurt.. and I dont understand
I say: (12:04:19 AM): it hurts so bad, Tony..
I say: (12:04:33 AM): I can't imagine ever being with someone else..and feeling so good.. like I felt with you
I say: (12:04:47 AM): when we were together.. it just felt so perfect
He says: (12:05:22 AM): all the more reason for US to get over this
I say: (12:05:34 AM): what do you mean?
He says: (12:05:39 AM): so we can do this the right way
I say: (12:05:56 AM): what do you mean
I say: (12:06:55 AM): ??
He says: (12:07:03 AM): look
He says: (12:07:22 AM): clearly we are meant to be together
He says: (12:07:51 AM): but if we can't do right now...then we should go with what we got
I say: (12:08:13 AM): you are the one..saying we can't do this right.. now...
He says: (12:08:27 AM): you said it first
I say: (12:08:38 AM): I'm willing to give you time.. and space... if that is what you want...
I say: (12:08:43 AM): I know I said it first...
I say: (12:09:20 AM): just I dont want to be without you.
I say: (12:10:13 AM): I just dont understand how us just "being friends" is going to help.. us be together in the end.. because all it makes me feel is that, never one of u can be committed to working out the problems
I say: (12:10:51 AM): neither
He says: (12:11:46 AM): if we're friends...that means we dont hate each other
I say: (12:12:10 AM): I could never hate you
He says: (12:12:18 AM): it means the book doesn’t close
I say: (12:12:31 AM): no. but it still means.. we both move on in our lives
I say: (12:12:34 AM): without the other
He says: (12:12:53 AM): not necessarily
I say: (12:13:26 AM): I can't just be your friend.. and hold out hope.. that one day.. things will be better.. and we can be together
He says: (12:13:27 AM): you’re friends with Lisa (I know different thing) your lives move in different directions, but you still have each other
I say: (12:13:36 AM): girlfriends are different..
He says: (12:13:48 AM): how so
He says: (12:14:03 AM): especially in this case
I say: (12:14:16 AM): because you'll meet women.. and I'll meet men.. and things wont be the same
He says: (12:14:45 AM): Idont believe that
He says: (12:14:59 AM): nothing stays the same anyway
I say: (12:15:06 AM): thats true
I say: (12:15:40 AM): but I couldn’t deal with being with your friend.. and loving you as much as I do. hoping someday.. you'll be around to make a commitment to me.. knowing your with other women
He says: (12:16:20 AM): you make me sound like I have a different woman every week
I say: (12:16:32 AM): I'm not trying to
He says: (12:16:42 AM): may I remind you that you've had more partners than me my dear LOL
He says: (12:16:49 AM):
I say: (12:16:51 AM): thanks for the nice reminder
He says: (12:17:16 AM): I mean no offense
I say: (12:17:23 AM): just I don't understand how you can say any of this to me.. and expect me to be.. like. oh .. ok.. thats fine
He says: (12:17:33 AM): for now...I dont
I say: (12:17:42 AM): commitment is important to me
He says: (12:17:55 AM): but I'm hoping, as you heal, that you'll see the logic of my words
I say: (12:17:59 AM): I wont
I say: (12:18:04 AM): I do understand part of it
I say: (12:18:15 AM): but I’ll never completely understand.
He says: (12:18:30 AM): and thats you'll realize that I did what I what...because I love and care about you
He says: (12:18:42 AM): missed phone calls included
I say: (12:18:49 AM): if you say so
I say: (12:18:57 AM): everything is a matter of opinion
I say: (12:19:04 AM): and everything is your choice
He says: (12:19:27 AM): not true
I say: (12:19:29 AM): how so
He says: (12:19:32 AM): you have choices
I say: (12:19:38 AM): not in our relationship
He says: (12:19:48 AM): you could choose to forgive me...
I say: (12:20:02 AM): or not forgive you
He says: (12:20:09 AM): you could choose to be my friend instead of my ex
I say: (12:20:18 AM): its not the same T. ..
I say: (12:20:24 AM): do you even understand how I feel
He says: (12:20:30 AM): no I dont
He says: (12:20:39 AM): I cant Iam not you
I say: (12:20:45 AM): you could still understand...
He says: (12:20:47 AM): but you are not the only person hurting here
I say: (12:20:54 AM): how can you tell me that
I say: (12:21:15 AM): you chose to end this, you chose to not even try..
I say: (12:21:27 AM): you chose.. what is important in your life
I say: (12:21:52 AM): I really don't think you tried, whether .. you believe it or not
I say: (12:21:52 AM): not
He says: (12:22:11 AM): I would hasten to call coming to see you..and making space for you In my life...not trying
I say: (12:22:19 AM): huh?
He says: (12:22:20 AM): but that is a matter of opinion
I say: (12:22:33 AM): you came to see me 3 times..
I say: (12:22:46 AM): you called when you felt like and emailed when you felt like it
He says: (12:22:48 AM): we saw each other for a month
I say: (12:22:54 AM): and you didn't make space for me in your life
He says: (12:22:59 AM): please dont start
I say: (12:23:06 AM): tell me how you made space?
I say: (12:23:37 AM): because I dont see it
I say: (12:23:40 AM): maybe i'm missing something
He says: (12:23:48 AM): we're not having this discussion again
He says: (12:23:56 AM): or at least I'm not
I say: (12:23:56 AM): you basically told ur friends, I'm fucking nuts..
He says: (12:24:01 AM): no
He says: (12:24:03 AM): No
He says: (12:24:04 AM): NO
I say: (12:24:09 AM): and then.. told me you needed space. and ignored me for 4 days
He says: (12:24:27 AM): YOUR BLOG TOLD MY FRIENDS THAT YOU'RE NUCKING FUTS
He says: (12:24:30 AM): NOT ME
I say: (12:24:38 AM): yes. yes..
He says: (12:24:41 AM): YOUR PUBLIC BLOG...I MIGHT ASS
I say: (12:24:43 AM): you sent them to it though
He says: (12:24:48 AM): ADD EVEN
I say: (12:24:49 AM): yes yes..
I say: (12:25:09 AM): then.. you couldn’t keep the fact they they thought that private you had to come tell me
I say: (12:25:10 AM): me
I say: (12:25:22 AM): knowing damn well.. that it would hurt me
He says: (12:25:54 AM): you always ask me what I'm thinking...did you want me to lie
I say: (12:26:03 AM): no.
He says: (12:26:08 AM): 'cuz I wont
I say: (12:26:09 AM): but you could of left that out
I say: (12:26:44 AM): it doesnt matter now, cuz I'm not part of your life
He says: (12:26:55 AM): that...is your choice
I say: (12:27:09 AM): how. just cuz we are friends .. doesnt mean anything
He says: (12:27:42 AM): so you;re telling that the time before we dated was meaningless
I say: (12:27:50 AM): i'm not saying that..
He says: (12:27:53 AM): you just did
I say: (12:28:01 AM): I'm just saying... we are just friends.. I dont expect anything out of that..
I say: (12:28:11 AM): I dont expect to see you.. or even really talk to you
I say: (12:28:43 AM): I just dont understand... and I dont know how you expect me too
I say: (12:30:09 AM): I've just never met anyone that.. could sit and tell me he loves me . and wants to be with me.. and.. not... be able to make that commitment, because he feels that is what is best.. for me
I say: (12:30:59 AM): still there?
He says: (12:31:03 AM): yeah
I say: (12:31:08 AM): not saying anything
I say: (12:31:45 AM): Tony?
He says: (12:31:49 AM): yes
I say: (12:31:53 AM): are you going to say anything?
He says: (12:32:05 AM): not sure what to say
I say: (12:32:10 AM): then dont.
I say: (12:32:23 AM): its fine.. I'll never quite understand...
I say: (12:32:38 AM): I'm going to go, cry myself to sleep.. goodnite.. and take care
He says: (12:32:52 AM): bye
I say: (12:33:05 AM): I just dont understand.. how you can tell me what you tell me.. and still agree..whats best
I say: (12:33:15 AM): you are something you know that
He says: (12:33:33 AM): I get that alot
He says: (12:33:43 AM): sadly
I say: (12:33:53 AM): sadly you probably always will
I say: (12:34:16 AM): I just want to understand
I say: (12:34:22 AM): so I can heal
I say: (12:34:28 AM): so I can get over you.. and move on
I say: (12:34:50 AM): Noone has ever made me feel like you do...
I say: (12:35:34 AM): both good and bad..
I say: (12:35:50 AM): are you paying any attention. or am I talking to myself
He says: (12:36:08 AM): im reading
I say: (12:36:44 AM): ok?
He says: (12:37:11 AM): I'm going to sleep now
I say: (12:37:40 AM): yeah me too.. see you around. you know how to find me..
He says: (12:37:49 AM): ok
I say: (12:37:56 AM): I'm glad someone can sleep
I say: (12:38:26 AM): I just want to scream and choke you to death right now
He says: (12:38:52 AM): removes neck...and hands it to her
I say: (12:39:06 AM): *thanks.. at least made me laugh*
I say: (12:39:17 AM): I just want to understand, and be ok with this.
I say: (12:39:24 AM): I want to stop crying.
He says: (12:39:26 AM): give in time
He says: (12:39:31 AM): it time rather
I say: (12:39:42 AM): how am I supposed to understand
I say: (12:39:49 AM): you tell me u love me..
I say: (12:39:52 AM): and you want me..
I say: (12:40:07 AM): how can you tell me that.. its not true
I say: (12:40:18 AM): can I ask you something?
He says: (12:40:26 AM): sure
I say: (12:40:37 AM): if I would of been pregnant.. would you of still broke up with me?
He says: (12:40:49 AM): no
He says: (12:40:52 AM): of course not
I say: (12:41:01 AM): why is that
He says: (12:41:24 AM): a...I wanted you to be the mother
He says: (12:42:00 AM): b...a child is a life changing event...I've always told myself if I became a dad the band thing would be over
I say: (12:42:12 AM): your crazy
He says: (12:42:21 AM): at thawt point...we would have to be together
I say: (12:42:46 AM): so now.. though.. we love each other.. there is really no point in us being together?
He says: (12:42:54 AM): you asked once why I was disappointed that you weren't pregnant
He says: (12:43:30 AM): your sentence doesn’t make sense
I say: (12:43:54 AM): basically all I read into all this.. is.. You can't make a commitment to me...
He says: (12:44:07 AM): not the one you want
He says: (12:44:14 AM): or deserve
I say: (12:44:21 AM): but if I was pregnant.. you could... and that doesnt make sense to me..
He says: (12:44:45 AM): would you rather my answer been different
I say: (12:44:54 AM): I dont know.
I say: (12:45:12 AM): just I want you to want to be with me..
He says: (12:45:15 AM): would you rather have heard me say "No Julie, I would have dumped you anyway"...
I say: (12:45:31 AM): It wouldnt of mattered, if I was pregnant.. I would of killed myself. and not messed up
I say: (12:45:41 AM): cuz I couldn’t take the chance of being alone
He says: (12:46:12 AM): thats selfish thinking...but I dont believe you'd do that to Dare
I say: (12:46:22 AM): I would of... and it scares me.
I say: (12:46:49 AM): why can't you make a commitment tome?
I say: (12:47:48 AM): why did you offer to move for me.. knowing damn well you wouldnt do it
I say: (12:47:53 AM): why did you tell me you wanted to marry me
I say: (12:48:52 AM): Tony?
He says: (12:49:20 AM): yes
I say: (12:49:33 AM): am I talking to myself? or just bothering you?
He says: (12:49:59 AM): no to both
I say: (12:50:17 AM): could u try to answer my questions then.. then I'll shut up and leave you alone
He says: (12:50:42 AM): why can't you make a commitment tome?
I say: (12:50:51 AM): thats one thing I asked.. yah
He says: (12:50:58 AM): Because I cant give you want right now....
I say: (12:51:21 AM): I just feel its more than that
He says: (12:51:29 AM): why did you tell me you wanted to marry me...because I did, and still do
I say: (12:51:38 AM): how can you tell me that?
He says: (12:51:46 AM): you asked
I say: (12:52:18 AM): if you let go.... and want to be just friends.. I'm not going to accept the fact.. if you decide 3 years from now, that you want me.. and think i'm just going to jump to be with you..
He says: (12:52:36 AM): I didn’t say thawt
I say: (12:52:46 AM): no.. you didn’t
I say: (12:52:56 AM): I also asked.. why did you offer to move for me...
He says: (12:53:30 AM): because at the time I wanted to, and the band wants to move anyway
I say: (12:53:41 AM): umm..
I say: (12:53:49 AM): what is it that you can't give me?
He says: (12:54:03 AM): I liked Allentown because it was central...and it seemed a good way to solve all problems at once
He says: (12:54:09 AM): time
I say: (12:54:10 AM): ok
I say: (12:54:14 AM): why can't you give me time?
He says: (12:54:23 AM): I can
He says: (12:54:42 AM): but I dont want to have to worry if I miss a phone call
I say: (12:54:56 AM): why dont you see the phone calls as important
He says: (12:55:00 AM): or if I can't come see you at the last moment
I say: (12:55:06 AM): its the only way we connect, its important to me
He says: (12:55:19 AM): they are important
I say: (12:55:23 AM): what do you mean.. if you can't come to see me at the last moment... ...
I say: (12:55:31 AM): like ..saying Friday.. Oh by the way. I can't come
He says: (12:55:34 AM): I never said they weren't
I say: (12:55:39 AM): it cuz you don't explain.. why
I say: (12:55:46 AM): what is it you worry about..when you miss a phone call?
He says: (12:56:13 AM): talking to you is important...but I dont want to be scolded if I dont talk to you
I say: (12:56:24 AM): I didn't realize you felt I scolded you
He says: (12:56:38 AM): what you never seemed to realize is ...if I dodnt talk to you...they was usually a good reason
I say: (12:57:01 AM): I just dont understand how you have time, to go on hotornot..and myspace..and do this and that..and can't even bother to say.. hey honey.. sorry I didn’t call.. I felt it was too late and didn’t want to wake you.. etc..etc..

I say: (12:57:06 AM): I dont feel like its a good reason
I say: (12:57:09 AM): you dont explain
He says: (12:57:22 AM): if you going to dig this up...then I'm leaving
I say: (12:57:28 AM): please..
I say: (12:57:36 AM): I want to understand..why you dont want to be with me
He says: (12:58:10 AM): I already apologized for this
He says: (12:58:15 AM): not doing it twice
I say: (12:58:28 AM): I'm not asking you to apologize..
I say: (12:58:42 AM): I just want to understand.. why you think its best for us to quit dating
I say: (12:58:47 AM): because I dont see it like that
I say: (12:59:06 AM): I'm sorry
I say: (12:59:08 AM): I'm sorry
I say: (12:59:47 AM): ?
He says: (12:59:55 AM): hello
I say: (1:00:00 AM): yes?
He says: (1:00:18 AM): thought you left
I say: (1:00:29 AM): well. unfortunately i'm still here
I say: (1:01:12 AM): I just want to be able to understand.
I say: (1:01:37 AM): i'm not trying to piss you off..
I say: (1:02:09 AM): I just don't understand.. why.. if we love each other and want to be together, why we can't work something out...
He says: (1:02:12 AM): really??!?!?!?
He says: (1:02:14 AM): LOL
I say: (1:02:29 AM): why am I pissing you off?
I say: (1:02:35 AM): if I am . i'm sorry
He says: (1:02:37 AM): nope
I say: (1:03:18 AM): Im sorry you felt like I scold you when you dont call
I say: (1:03:22 AM): I just worry
He says: (1:03:38 AM): I understand that now
I say: (1:03:57 AM): i'm repeating myself again....
I say: (1:04:00 AM): I just don't understand.. why.. if we love each other and want to be together, why we can't work something out...
I say: (1:04:45 AM): but I guess I mite as well talk to Oscar the grouch
He says: (1:05:26 AM): I dont believe we can work as long as we are were we are location wise
He says: (1:05:56 AM): that will have to change before anything can "work out"...
He says: (1:06:12 AM): and I'm just not in a position to do anything about that right now
I say: (1:06:23 AM): why do we have to right now...
I say: (1:06:47 AM): there are so many things.. we can work on.. before one of us moved closer to the other
He says: (1:06:55 AM): we dont...which is why I suggested what I suggested earlier
I say: (1:07:02 AM): just be friends..
He says: (1:07:06 AM): yes
I say: (1:07:26 AM): I'm saying. if that is what you want.. you will never have a chance.. to be with me.. again
He says: (1:07:45 AM): why are being so mean to me
I say: (1:07:47 AM): I can't just be "friends" and hope one day things will change..and we can be together
I say: (1:07:53 AM): I’m not being mean.. I'm being realistic
He says: (1:07:59 AM): ok
He says: (1:08:18 AM): I'm going
I say: (1:08:21 AM): if you want me, like you say you do, I need some sort of commitment, before.. I up and move.. or before.. anything that serious
I say: (1:08:25 AM): Please Tony..
I say: (1:08:43 AM): if your mad.. please dont be
He says: (1:08:50 AM): im not mad
I say: (1:08:55 AM): what then
He says: (1:08:56 AM): just tired
I say: (1:09:01 AM): ok.. can we talk again soon?
He says: (1:09:23 AM): I want to pass through this so I can at least have my friend back
I say: (1:09:45 AM): Tony.. if i'm just your friend.. again.. thats all I will be.. and I dont want that.. I want more..
I say: (1:10:03 AM): I love you so much.. I want to be in your arms.. I want to feel your kisses..
I say: (1:11:34 AM): I guess you wont say anything yet.. again.... sweet dreams.. and take care.. I hope you have a nice day...
He says: (1:11:45 AM): u2
He says: (1:11:52 AM): be good to yourself
I say: (1:11:53 AM): please.. just know.. i'm not trying to be mean by what I said.. just realistic..
I say: (1:11:58 AM): yeah..
I say: (1:12:00 AM): nite